Diary Blogging

I think I need to explain something.
When I first started this blog it was to express my feelings about the politics of our age. So this was initially a political blog and now it's evolved into more of an online diary. The reason I write what I write is because I live in the selfish hope that what I'm feeling can help someone else. Another reason is that writing helps me work through the feelings I couldn't be able to work out in any other way. The most logical way would be to get a therapist but shrinks are expensive and I don't have that kind of cash floating around in my laundry pockets, so this blog is my shrink. What I write is free-thought all the way. I sign in and I just write. I don't even come up with a proper title for my posts until I am done writing whatever it is that comes out. I honestly don't plan out these posts most of the time. So what I write here is me. I say what I would normally say in real life. I really do think these things and I recognize the faults in myself through my diary blogging (which is the term I'm going to use for what I'm doing here...and as I write that I realize that should be the title of this post, so it will be). When I write the state of mind I'm in tends to be somewhat moody and I'm sorry about that. I pawn off a lot of my emotions to the gods of blogging and maybe that's the coward's way of deal with things. But so be it. I realize that some of the things I say here may not make sense to anyone but me but honestly that is what I need and this is my blog and I have the right to say whatever I want on here (as long as I don't violate any law, of course). I have a feeling that some of my posts seem a bit on the bipolar side especially when it comes to the topic of boys (Chris in particular). Since I know some of my family reads this blog I want you to know that I am really ok. There will be no bridge-jumping in my future unless it's the only way I'll survive the impending apocalypse and whatnot.

The point I'm trying to get to is that this blog is my way of dealing with life. And with all the ups and downs that I've shared through this blog I really have to thank everyone who reads this blog because not only have you witnessed the twists and turns of my life you have also witnessed a girl falling in love with the art of writing. I realize that writing will be a part of my future no matter what else life has to throw at me.

I will also use this opportunity to apologize for future blog posts. I sense that this will be something of a melancholic week for me (even though tomorrow is my 19th birthday) and I'll be posting some super melancholic stuff. So all I ask is that you bear with me as I figure out life and whenever you want to feel free to tell me what you're thinking about my posts or whatever is going on in my life. If there's one thing I'm good at, it's taking constructive criticism.

Thank you for reading.